solitu:

do you remember? that time—it was tough.

I learned how to hide my own suffer and sadness behind a kind smile. It’s what they say—those who knows the real pain are the the ones that can smile brighter? I guess…that doesn’t necessary applies to someone who knows what it’s to be on suffer.

I hated my life, I hated it so much. After a lost, after losing everything…you feel like you’re slowly getting trapped in a black hole, without escape.

haha this sounds funny…knowing you weren’t a God at that time, and you pretended to be just another human, I still wonder why you acted like a regular human, maybe it was fear to rejection or you didn’t need to say anything.

…it was hard, I never made good friends for fear that ‘he’ would try to hurt them as well but…with you was different. I felt I could be myself, I could stop hiding my sadness and …actually stop wearing that burden on my shoulders all by my own.

It’s—it is still very hard to me to…talk about this as it was just a ‘funny’ story to tell, the only one that probably would know this is Ryo and…I’m sure he still worries about me in that aspect but I’m okay now, I could move on thanks to you.

if I regret it? no, you did what I probably wouldn’t even dare—you decided to dirt your hands instead of me.

Tha makes me…pure? haha, hell no—I’m not as pure as I look like…I’m aware of my own corruption, I guess we all have to carry with that inside us, we are not perfect after all.

I bet it would sound very ironic if I say that you, God of the underworld, are the kindest being I’ve ever met in this universe, but I do believe so.

Thank you…